I am who I am

Nothing is more spiritual than owning up when you make a mistake.

Nothing is more spiritual than returning to the simplicity of the heart.

Nothing is more spiritual than loving and expressing it freely — like when we were children, with innocence, with the purity and spontaneity we were born with, and that still lives dormant within our essence, patiently waiting to be expressed. 

Today, I don’t want to be perfect. Nor “spiritual.” Nor “enlightened.”

Nor “conscious,” “empathetic,” “feminine,” “resilient,” or anything that fits within the tight boundaries of my arrogance and humility.

I don’t want to be anything that once defined the concept of Valentina.

Today, I declare that I’m simply tired of all the ideas and pseudo-spiritual science, of all the books, of the endless healing rituals, of all the self-concepts and labels.

Today, I just want to recognize myself as a tiny fragment of the universe, full of contradictions and ignorance, not in charge of anything — someone who, every day upon waking, can only be in awe!, in gratitude, and in enthusiasm, knowing that at least I get the chance to play.

I don’t know if I’ll wake up in this body tomorrow...

So I’d better try to have fun today, to create things that don’t need to have a meaning or coherence imposed on them, but that are, at least, honest expressions — attempts to share what’s inside me. 💚

Maybe I am a hot mess, maybe a boring one, maybe nothing at all, maybe a beautiful creation. I don’t care anymore. I am who I am, in this moment…

My story and my decisions have brought me to where I am today — and though I like where I’ve ended up, I can choose anew, and better.

And today, I decide to change.

My story has shaped my personality, and though I like who I am, I want to be someone new.

I want to meet a new me.

I want to unlearn more than reinforce the explanations and narratives that run in the background of my mind when I interact with the world. 🌏

Today, I’d rather not know so much and feel much more.

I’d rather stop telling myself stories in my head and live more adventures in my everyday life.

I want to be braver, less “Valentina,” and more a piece of existence, of nature, of cosmos...💫